This week I have been....

...consumed by work. In my other life I run a business with my brother and my husband. I am able to manage the two fairly well but this week has been a really tough one.

4 weeks ago our Graphic Designer had a baby. 2 weeks ago my brother wanted to fire her because we could only communicate on email and she wasn't producing good work, if she produced any work at all. This is when the bond between mothers came in and I said I would work closely with her to produce what we needed.

I called her to discuss things and she was in real trouble. Her 4 week old wasn't sleeping through the day and was screaming the whole day. She wasn't breast feeding very well at all and she had just cottoned on to the fact that he might be hungry. So the dilemma of switching to bottle feeding and the harsh self-judgement that comes with that was the place she was in. My heart went out to her.

So I basically did her job for her for these last couple of weeks - sourcing every bit of information. All she had to do was put it together.

And she did a bad job. And I have had to tell her that we won't be using her anymore. That decision was really really hard for me. I don't want to be one of those business owners that puts moral decisions on the back burner but the stress associated with her not producing the work we needed is at its peak. But still the decision was really hard for me.

So all week I have been desperately trying to find a way out of letting her go and that has meant my other role - which I love the most - has been put on hold this last week.

Unfortunately this week will be consumed with finding someone to replace her and getting the work done in double quick time.

I look forward to getting back to doing this really soon....

1 comments:

LJ said...

Oh dear. Its not an easy thing to do. But you cannot say you didn't try to help. Balancing work and motherhood is not easy...especially if working from home. As much as it is very nice to want to help out, you must also consider the business...and don't feel guilty for doing so.

Sunday, September 12, 2010

This week I have been....

...consumed by work. In my other life I run a business with my brother and my husband. I am able to manage the two fairly well but this week has been a really tough one.

4 weeks ago our Graphic Designer had a baby. 2 weeks ago my brother wanted to fire her because we could only communicate on email and she wasn't producing good work, if she produced any work at all. This is when the bond between mothers came in and I said I would work closely with her to produce what we needed.

I called her to discuss things and she was in real trouble. Her 4 week old wasn't sleeping through the day and was screaming the whole day. She wasn't breast feeding very well at all and she had just cottoned on to the fact that he might be hungry. So the dilemma of switching to bottle feeding and the harsh self-judgement that comes with that was the place she was in. My heart went out to her.

So I basically did her job for her for these last couple of weeks - sourcing every bit of information. All she had to do was put it together.

And she did a bad job. And I have had to tell her that we won't be using her anymore. That decision was really really hard for me. I don't want to be one of those business owners that puts moral decisions on the back burner but the stress associated with her not producing the work we needed is at its peak. But still the decision was really hard for me.

So all week I have been desperately trying to find a way out of letting her go and that has meant my other role - which I love the most - has been put on hold this last week.

Unfortunately this week will be consumed with finding someone to replace her and getting the work done in double quick time.

I look forward to getting back to doing this really soon....

1 comment:

LJ said...

Oh dear. Its not an easy thing to do. But you cannot say you didn't try to help. Balancing work and motherhood is not easy...especially if working from home. As much as it is very nice to want to help out, you must also consider the business...and don't feel guilty for doing so.